I found out this week that my Grandfather had passed away. As soon as I heard it I started to cry. Anyone who knows me at all knows that I don't just cry about anything. You could be saying to yourself right now "my goodness this is her Grandfather who died she should be crying"
Well you have to understand why I was crying.
Growing up I only saw my Grandpa a handful of times and the last time being when I was about 15 or 16.
I was not allowed to have a relationship with him because of my step-grandma and how much she did not like his kids or even his grandkids.
So for all of those years when most grandkids enjoyed going and spending time with their grandparents I did not.
I did not have sleep over’s, summer stays, I did not even get slipped candy by my grandfather.
The few times I do remember him are hard for me because I'm not sure if they are my memories or just ones that I had made from something someone had told me about him.
So how do you mourn for someone that you did not even know?
The reason I was crying is because I would never get the chance to know him and my children will never get the chance to even meet him!
Take your kids and your grandkids and even your great grand kids and love them and spend time with them. Because you never know when you won’t be able to anymore!
Not only did I not get to spend time with my grandfather before he died but my step grandmother is not letting the family come to the funeral.
How do you mourn for a grandfather you never knew?
Its hard let me tell you, because there is love there for him and now I will never get to show it to him!
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Friday, May 6, 2011
Missing!
The sun was shining today so I thought that I would take the kids out for a bike ride around the apartment complex.
So we grabbed our light jackets and headed out the door. Kids were pumped to see the sun and were very much enjoying the ride.
We went around the “block” a few times then came back to play in the yard.
I sat with my crocheting in hand and the kids made beautiful sidewalk pictures.
A few of the kids from a few doors down came over to play for a bit.
We had been out for about a half hour and I did notice a few moms came out to smoke and then go back in there houses.
I was not really surprised that no parents came out with the children that were playing with mine.
It seems to be the thing around these people to just let their kids go.
The other day I had a 4 year old at my house for over an hour and never once saw her parents. They never came over to check on their 4 year old or even introduce themselves to me.
So after we had played a wile Michael started to get fussy and that was enough for me to say “Nap time” so in we went after Katie said good bye to her friends.
About 20 min after we had come inside and put Michael down for his nap I got a knock at my door.
No “hi I’m Hamya's mom,” just a lady and a little boy (Cameron I knew because he had been over to my yard to play with Katie a lot)
“Do you know where Hamya is?” I was asked by Cameron.
I am guessing a puzzled look came over my face at the question because the lady stepped up and said.
“He said that he could not find Katie (my Katie) and Hamya and he was upset. Do you know where they are?”
In my mind I am thinking: well yes I know where MY kid is because I watch her.
“Um, I last saw Hamya about 20 min ago right there playing with the ball”
There was the ball but no little girl. Take in mind this little girl is only 5. No bigger than a grasshopper and a girl for that matter.
“Okay thanks, I m sure she is around here somewhere” was all she said and walked away with Cameron.
Thinking in my head I can’t believe how irresponsible these parents are to just let their kid’s wonder from house to house playing and them never knowing where they are.
I mean I could have taken off with this little girl and have sold her on the black market before the mom even knew she was missing.
About 10 min later I hear the same lady (still don’t know her name) yelling at Cameron and Hamya telling them to come back home when they are done playing as she walks back to her apartment and closes the door.
WHAY IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE!!!!
I mean since when is it okay to just let little kids run around with NO adult supervision???? My motto is
“If I cannot get to you in 5 seconds then you are too far away!”
You hear all the time about kids going missing because they were allowed to walk home from school, or the bus stop, or to the store to get a pop, or just playing on the front steps. And yet we still just let our kids go for sex offenders and murders to just pick up and then get on the news and say how much they love their kids and how they want them back.
You don’t love your kid when you don’t even care enough to keep an eye on them when they are playing. Your kids that YOU CHOOSE to have are YOUR responsibility not the lady down a few houses!
The only reason I am posting about this is because it’s not the first time this has happened to me. I have kids come over to my house all the time to play with my kids but never ever have I had one parent come and introduce themselves to me or even come check on their kids.
So we grabbed our light jackets and headed out the door. Kids were pumped to see the sun and were very much enjoying the ride.
We went around the “block” a few times then came back to play in the yard.
I sat with my crocheting in hand and the kids made beautiful sidewalk pictures.
A few of the kids from a few doors down came over to play for a bit.
We had been out for about a half hour and I did notice a few moms came out to smoke and then go back in there houses.
I was not really surprised that no parents came out with the children that were playing with mine.
It seems to be the thing around these people to just let their kids go.
The other day I had a 4 year old at my house for over an hour and never once saw her parents. They never came over to check on their 4 year old or even introduce themselves to me.
So after we had played a wile Michael started to get fussy and that was enough for me to say “Nap time” so in we went after Katie said good bye to her friends.
About 20 min after we had come inside and put Michael down for his nap I got a knock at my door.
No “hi I’m Hamya's mom,” just a lady and a little boy (Cameron I knew because he had been over to my yard to play with Katie a lot)
“Do you know where Hamya is?” I was asked by Cameron.
I am guessing a puzzled look came over my face at the question because the lady stepped up and said.
“He said that he could not find Katie (my Katie) and Hamya and he was upset. Do you know where they are?”
In my mind I am thinking: well yes I know where MY kid is because I watch her.
“Um, I last saw Hamya about 20 min ago right there playing with the ball”
There was the ball but no little girl. Take in mind this little girl is only 5. No bigger than a grasshopper and a girl for that matter.
“Okay thanks, I m sure she is around here somewhere” was all she said and walked away with Cameron.
Thinking in my head I can’t believe how irresponsible these parents are to just let their kid’s wonder from house to house playing and them never knowing where they are.
I mean I could have taken off with this little girl and have sold her on the black market before the mom even knew she was missing.
About 10 min later I hear the same lady (still don’t know her name) yelling at Cameron and Hamya telling them to come back home when they are done playing as she walks back to her apartment and closes the door.
WHAY IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE!!!!
I mean since when is it okay to just let little kids run around with NO adult supervision???? My motto is
“If I cannot get to you in 5 seconds then you are too far away!”
You hear all the time about kids going missing because they were allowed to walk home from school, or the bus stop, or to the store to get a pop, or just playing on the front steps. And yet we still just let our kids go for sex offenders and murders to just pick up and then get on the news and say how much they love their kids and how they want them back.
You don’t love your kid when you don’t even care enough to keep an eye on them when they are playing. Your kids that YOU CHOOSE to have are YOUR responsibility not the lady down a few houses!
The only reason I am posting about this is because it’s not the first time this has happened to me. I have kids come over to my house all the time to play with my kids but never ever have I had one parent come and introduce themselves to me or even come check on their kids.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Have you ever prayed for something and never seen it happen? I have and it always made me wonder if maybe I was just not getting through to God.
Well today my doubts were squashed flat.
I spend a restless night last night because I was stressing out about something at work that involved my children going to a sitter.
I prayed about it and asked God to give me peace so I could sleep but I also asked him to work it out for me.
Today I got a call that I was not needed to work the shift so that I did not need to send my kids to a sitter.
I can’t explain it but an amazing feeling of peace came over me and I knew that it was God that worked it out.
I did not know why I had such stress about sending them. I like the lady and I trust her but something was just not right.
Maybe God will reveal what he let me and my children avoid.
I just love to see when God comes threw for you it makes all that doubt just vanish. Not to mention now I am having a great day!
Psalm 4:8 (King James Version)
8I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, LORD, only makest me dwell in safety.
Well today my doubts were squashed flat.
I spend a restless night last night because I was stressing out about something at work that involved my children going to a sitter.
I prayed about it and asked God to give me peace so I could sleep but I also asked him to work it out for me.
Today I got a call that I was not needed to work the shift so that I did not need to send my kids to a sitter.
I can’t explain it but an amazing feeling of peace came over me and I knew that it was God that worked it out.
I did not know why I had such stress about sending them. I like the lady and I trust her but something was just not right.
Maybe God will reveal what he let me and my children avoid.
I just love to see when God comes threw for you it makes all that doubt just vanish. Not to mention now I am having a great day!
Psalm 4:8 (King James Version)
8I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, LORD, only makest me dwell in safety.
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